Started working for near to 2 months already, still on the process of learning and settling down in the job and environment. I somehow like what i am doing and maybe its because I know that its a place that i can learn alot. But well, i started to feel not so good about myself doing the job..too many worries on whether i can do the job and maybe been too conscious.. Really need to be more confident in myself.. and hate myself for been nervous and jittery over small things, which is something i've been trying to overcome for so long.

Its really nice to have such a funky and joyful team, which makes working life enjoyable. My colleagues are all kind and nice, just that we might still have some barriers since im consider new. and sometimes, the feeling of being out of place..

I seriously think that my boss is scary, she's like the discipline mistress, feel so stress when she's around! I really dont like to talk to her! Everyone so scared of her, but i think she's much better that the director. cos the director has got no manners at all! seriously hate these people who think that they are of higher status and has no regards for others, cant stand them ttm. Just like my mum has said, there are people of higher rank that them and we dont see them showing off around..

Well, time flies, coming to the end of 2010 and goodness, im turning 23! It just felt like im 16 yesterday! Why do i see myself feeling the same as 16, 17 when im almost 23 while others changed so much in these few years?? As in.. i still stay close to my family and maybe still a daddy's girl..still single and dont see myself in any relationship or longer term.. marriage and kids?!..and having no idea what i should do about my life and what i really want for a career? it puzzle me whenever i see people doing more and having a different life from mine.