2012

It's been a long time! We're almost done with first quarter of 2012! Life is very much the same, busy with work and slacking away during off work hours. However, despite life being so mudune, things have changed, or going to change, mindset have shifted unknowingly...
There's so many nitty gritty that has happened over the past few months and yea let see what I can recap over this post :)

Ever since I last blogged, work has never being easy.. the 4 months when my colleague is on maternity leave was like a roller coaster ride. going thru all sort of weird cases and impromptu situations, and having to adapt to new style of different management. Well, it damn true that we do learnt from all those shit we get and yes im glad its over, with lots of learning points too. New challenges are coming up since its the new financial year for our company, recently just did the appraisal, which is my first time. So begining April, its like a new school term, where everything start afresh again. Well, lets hope for a good year ahead, with lesser hiccups and lesser 'xiao ren'. Speaking of which, the 1 year plus at work has taught me to become wiser and learned to speak up for myself when needed, because you'll never know who's the angel and who's the devil. Im thankful for the colleagues i've got, supporting and helpful...and I think our team is very bonded, and obviously improves the work efficiency. My boss is actually quite smart to employ people of the same kind and she once said that she make sure that the person that she picks must be able to 'gel' with the team. Apparently, her tactics work well, except for the previous girl she has employed.  And now a new girl has joined our team, i've suddenly felt very old because this new colleague of mine is only 19+ years old! what a good age! :( and my cousin just celebrated his 21st bday this evening, which reminds me of my 21st bday celebration 3 years back and im already 24! how time flies! and even my cousin has a girlfriend of 4 years, and here i am, still single. Being single has been the comment topic recently and question that everyone is asking and sometimes i myself wonder why too..perhaps im not so sociable and introvert sometimes.. and maybe too comfortable with life now.. abit worrying but at the end of the day, i know this is all predestined, very much in god's will.

Also, i've got the urge today because today (ie 15 April) is the day that we dreaded for. The maid that has been taking care of my grandma and young cousin, Hongyan is going back home to Indonesia. Its not the usual case where we just sent the maid to airport and say bye-bye. Ana, has been with us for 4 years, she has picked up chinese and even dialect while working for us. She has being taking care of my uncle's family so well over the past few years and being so bonded with the boys, especially the younger one. We are so scared of what is going to happen to Hongyan after tomorrow. When we kinda of let the 4 year-old boy know that her kak-kak is going back to Indonesia, he went to picked his clothings and toys, wanting to follow her back. She is like the mother of Hongyan, who has been cooking for him, tellling him stories, teaching him to be a good boy, bringing him to and fro from school and sleep in peace every night in her arms. The fact that they had been so bonded is because my uncle is a divorcee, and that bitch (ex-wife) left home when the boy was only 6 months old.  So even before Hongyan was born, Ana has been with us. 1 year plus ago, when Ana has to go back to her kampong for 2 weeks for some reasons, the boy was soo sad and looking after him was so tedious, he cried so many times for kak-kak and misses her hell lot. In recent weeks, the boy seems to know that his kak-kak will be leaving soon, felt so insecured that he woke up middle of the night and make sure she is with him. and even Ana cant bear to leave him, looking at him when he is soundly asleep. We've have tried to talk to Ana, asking her to stay for another 2 years, but afterall, she has a life of her own and need to go back for marriage which her family has linked her up with. It seems like my cousin's 21st bday celebration is also a farewell for her too, and i wanted to get her something, but well, didnt manage to, all i've done is printed some photos of her and the boys and my ah ma for her to bring back to her kampong, so that she can keepsake with. I thanked her for her patience, her kindness, her awesome culinary skills, which, for many saturdays and gatherings, i've enjoyed for. As my mum has said, because of her, we're able to work in peace, and don't have to worry about my ah ma because we know that she'll be well taken care of by Ana. We are really fortunate to have her around for 4 years plus and now that we cant be selfish anymore, we wishes her all the best! :) and hopefully Hongyan will be ok!!